Bilang isang Nurse

Dati.. Gusto ko maging nars.. Bakit.. kasi madaming pera! madali ang makahanp ng trabaho! pero ngayon napahiya lang ako sa sarili kong panaginip.. Mali.. bukod sa mahirap humanap ng trabaho..hindi kapa compensated sa mga ginagawa mo!

Ngayon, may trabaho ako.. Yes!! nakakapag trabaho ako..and if you will asked me how much the sahod.. ill just say to you guys na "WALA" volunteer ako..and even allowance wala.. even the smallest hope na ma aabsorb ako parang wala..

WALA. since the day na nagstart ako na mag work, i feel na this is it.. im gonna practice na the profession na pinili ko.. but sadly, i haven't felt the happiness since the day na nagstart ako. yung feeling na happy ako sa ginagawa ko, na happy ako sa work ko, yung HAPPINESS within..wala.

HAPPINESS. i started as Nursing aide, 2 months akong naging utusan nag vivital signs ng humigit kumulang 30 patients in a day, and if you as me if im happy.. NO! because im not growing.. and as a nurse you have to grow na hindi lang puro vs!

LEVEL UP. after 2 months eto na, hawak na ng patient, start sa mga MGH na patient to pedia to OB..and if you as me again if it added spice in my career..yes! but somehow it added stress everytime na pumapalpak ako. Pumapalpak ako in a such a way na di ko ineexpect na ganun ang kakalabasan.

WORTHLESS. and because of that palpak issue. Incidence report to the highest level, and every IR na ginagawa ko..sobrang na dedegrade ako, and i felt na im not as effective nurse as i thought i was. hindi pala.. simpleng instruction di ko magawa, and simpleng order pumapalpak pa.. and yes.. im a failure..:(

FAILURE. marami pa ko dapat matutunan..pero di ko alam ang chance ko as ospital na pinag woworkan ko.. im losing hope.. im losing chances.. im out of my mind and im about to give up..:(

konti nalang.. bibigay na ako..:(