Acceptance

This day, the day that i realized that all things that happened to me is something that I deserved.

i started my year hoping to find someone that can understand me..
i tried to forget him...i never text him for a while and to my surprise..
He got a girl in an a split second! i wanted to kill him and slap his face for him to see that the girl he was flirting with was a blah!! Not worth it!
But unknowingly, that guy was a blah too.. he used that girl to make fun of and his girl to realized what was something wrong with them…i moved on he doesn’t deserved my offer.
And then there's this strange guy..a guy that i never thought that i will invest so much feelings.. Stupidity knocks on me.. Im into rush of forgetting that person, my feelings towards him runs after me. I never waited for the right time; I take the risk of loving him, Im into rush of forgetting him..then suddenly my heart opens a door for him..all he needs to do was to take one step, just one step.. When he enters the door, memories of laughter and tears were left behind. He left me hanging and about to fall. He taught me everything that you must learn when you are loving someone.. He taught me how to love without asking anything in return and stop when something is not right. Anything I know about love was pointless when I started to take my second risk of loving a person. I thought that he was my forever, but he also shows that he’s not worthy to be my forever. We are different; I never loved him, perhaps I am just overwhelmed with his sweet actions. He never loved me from the start; he just wanted to have a companion.

The learning experience from this is, all things are worth it if we take things as a part of a normal life. We have to accept things positively in order for us to think first before questioning God why it happens and why we experience such things. It is not bad to be angry, and it is not bad to question something that you couldn’t understand but make sure that after you question something, take a deep breath…cry for a while… then move on… nothing really last forever…it is only to the people who knows the real meaning of forever…

Now I can say that I have already move on, that it’s my freaking fault that I never waited for the greatest loves story that He’s still writing.

The next time that I will fall in love I will make sure that this guy will be the luckiest and happiest guy in the world... I will show him forever with me and I will love him and only him while He’s mine. I will write a song that will tell our loves story and a poem that will make his heart beat faster. I will give him the assurance of trust, love and respect.
I will be faithful and always have faith on him..